maybe, possibly, kinda, semi, made the decision to do something

It is so funny to me (quite literally depending on my mental state) how today you can get a certificate/license fully online, for just about literally everything, even things as physically based as Personal Training, Yoga Instructor, Group Physical Class Instructor and so much more. Yet the flip side of the same coin is how absolutely amazing is it that with todays technology you are able to get all these and many more certifications, licenses, and training to make money no matter what your passion is, no matter where you are in the world, as long as you have connection to the internet, and a way to use said internet interactively, the sky is the limit.

So. . . I may have, maybe, possibly, kinda, semi, have decided, finally, to take my future life into my hands, take responsibility for my story, and my impact on the world, and signed up for one of those Yoga Certification courses that I was talking about earlier. And I really thought I would be totally nervous about typing this, and the idea of posting it, but . . . I . . . I . . I’m not. I am smiling as I type this. I am so happy, and almost want to cry when I also think of how I ordered business cards with my future titles on them (only 100. . . to start anyway lol)

For the first time ever I can see that all off the changes I am making now are sticking and changing. How do I know? how will you know when your changes are starting to finally stick? When you do it for a couple of days, then think about skipping it or not doing it (what ever it is) but that idea is almost more uncomfortable then the idea of just doing the activity/hobby, so thats usually what you end up doing. Or when you go back to old comforts, like eating crappy food, binge watching, over spending, ect. . .and they dont feel comfortable anymore, like they just dont fit or feel right, or like they use to. And do not get me wrong or my words or meaning twisted in any way shape or form, when you hit this spot, when the once comfortable no longer fits, but the new habits/patterns of behbehavior are not yet ”comforts”, it is an extreemly HARD place to be. Do not give up, keep pushing, instead of trying to find comforts in outside sources (regardless of what they are) we will always be open to ”attack”. However once you realize that all the comfort you need is within you, as cliche as it sounds, it is 100% true. Get to know you, the inner, real, true, you. That way no matter what life throughs at you, your shelter is built within yourslef on the bedrock of your faith.